The Problem With 20 Page Essays...

So far I've only found one essay less than 16 pages long. After searching all day in class I finally just decided I was going to have to deal with it and hunker down for some intense reading. However, it is easy said then done. I am no only half way through a 21 pager and have to admit I've only grasped a portion of what I was reading. The writing shoots a little above my head and there is so much time to simple zone out. I do think this essay will help but I was hoping I might be able to use it in both of my essays as sources. Please Stariha? Take pity on me!